The pursuit of

Happiness is defined by Webster as:
1) obsolete : good fortune : prosperity
2)
a : a state of well-being and contentment : joy
b : a pleasurable or satisfying experience
3) felicity, aptness

I think Webster nailed it this time, but I think he should have added that it is a variable. That is, happiness isn't a constant, granted, always experienced feeling.  If it were, we wouldn't pursue it. That's right, no one would be in search of it.   Life wouldn't have that thrill of transitioning from a downside to an upside.   We'd all be very bored to say the least.

At any rate I say, "Enjoy the rocky road of life, the suspense of asking for a promotion, and dare I say, the thrill of initiating make up sex." These moments won't last forever.

question #1... How do you know when you love someone? I don't mean in the romantic sense only, I mean really love someone. What do you ask of that person? What does that person ask of you? I think the answer is "nothing." I really think that when you love someone there isn't much asking at all. I think that unconditional love is much more like an offer to another person... I think when you show your love it takes the form of offering patience, being understanding, offering support, being kind, offering open communication, and offering the opportunity to regain trust or forgiveness when the one you love has hurt you.

Question #2... When and How do you tell Her/Him?.. Well, I'm stumped on that one.

The HO confessions

It’s been a few days and like usual, I’ve had a few days to think about life and the way that I have been living it. Like most people I’ve spent a portion of my life living behind a mask, a façade, a front, my own little alter ego that I wanted people to see so that I could hide my true self and be the type of person that I though people may want to get a chance to know… the type of person that people may want as a friend… the type of person everyone would accept with open arms and be admired/loved for a lifetime. But for real son, THAT AIN’T ME. I’m not the type of person that everyone is going to like/love/admire… I am me. I can only be me. No fronts, no mask, no façade, just Honesty and Openness… I can not waste anyone’s time with such things anymore.

My mom always told me that not everyone is going to like me… She hoped that one day I would no care if they did. That day has long passed and the length of the line of people and their dislikes is no concern of mine.

It all started with me being a HO person to myself first. This is now my HO confession to all that choose to read it.

My intention is not to offend, but to no longer pretend.
I am only being Honest & Open, So let the confessions begin


I never made it to 6 feet L, well I like my height cause God said it was perfect for me.
I want to fall in love, hopeless romantic style all the way.
Yeah, I watch Top Model, so what. It’s a good show, some seasons.
I like science, I like nature, I like hiking, I like motorcycles, I like living debt free.
I enjoy a flexible plan and I appreciate mutual respect between people.
I love vegetables, old bay on my fries, and I like ketchup on most sandwiches.
I like Purple.
I like HGTV... no I love it!!!
I don't like being rushed.
I'm late sometimes... sometimes I'm early.. I late majority of the time though...
I like cars and I love fixing them.
I am a hands on kind of guy.
I love being held by the sole woman of my affection.
I love math, I love my mom, I love family, and I love the time I spend with them.
I need to work on patience… I’m good but could be better.
I need to improve cooking skills, sometimes I think I’m better than I really am.
I feel that I should be more active and involved in social activities.
I have few friends but the ones I have are the BEST!!! I love all of them.
I wear glasses but never actually wear them.
I’m shy.
I’m very shy.
Like Very Very Very shy.
I like Rachel Ray's cooking show but she can't cook for ish!!!
I love martial arts… I was a student for 6 years. I studied Taekwondo and Tangsoodo.
I ran Track and Love the sport as much if not more than football.
I love to watch comedy and gymnastics.
I always wanted to go to the Olympics… in person.
I love video games and animals like ferrets, cats, dogs, and birds…. But, I’m allergic.
I don’t think that rice and sugar should be mixed in a bowl but my family does.
I have more to say but that will have to wait for my next confession.

Friends & Fam

Today is day 3 of my visit to Tucson, AZ and I've had alot of time to myself and I've also had a chance to spend a few moments with a select few members of my family. Over the last few days I've had alot of time to think about the simple things in life such as emotional/physical health, friends, family, future goals, and Love.
Today was definitely a real eye opener in regards to friendship because I learned that sometimes it's not a matter of how long you've known someone that makes the friendship strong but it's also the feeling of trust, mutual respect, unselfish love that people share with one another that builds strong friendships over time. This was a lesson that I had already learned before but was relived today/this morning when I spoke with someone whom I consider to be a good friend with great potiential. We were talking about his wedding, of which I am supposed to be one of the groomsmen when he made a statement that really caught me off guard. He said, "I wanted to know if you would be one of my best men? My fiance was the one who sent out the letters to people and she assumed that I would want the people that I knew the longest to be my best men/groomsmen but I really would rather it be the people that I'm closest to..." To me this definitely was an honor because I've only known this guy for just 3 years but I can definately say we share a common respect for one another and level of trust that I don't have with many other people. Soo Cheers to that.

Also I've had a chance to miss people. I know there are times when you really don't want to be bothered by some people, while other times you really don't want to be without the company of others... But today, I really began to think about the small things (there's that theme once again) that I miss about people that I never really noticed/ or thought that I would miss. There is this one person that I began to find myself slowly missing since I've been here over the last 3, now going on 4 days... And the part that I miss the most is her smile. I know it sounds silly but some people just have a smile that can light up a room, change your mood when you're sad, and/or bring comfort to you at times when you are feeling uneasy. Well, this smile that I miss is definitely all of the above!! I really just can't explain it, I just don't have the words to describe it in such detail that would do it proper justice. So for now I will just call her smile,... Beauty (hey, its a working title for now :-P... They say Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and from the way I see things, her smile is anything but shy of the meaning).

Hey, maybe it's the heat out here but I really think that I may blog more often.

Taking the journey

This is my first post and it is inspired by my friend the sophisticatedmystery. She's always talking to me about trying new things and blogging is one of them. At first I really wasn't sure if this was the thing for me... Honestly, I'm still not sure if it is however she has encouraged me to "take the journey" and I think she's right. Why not try something new, and well, I guess its up to me to decide whether or not I like the route I'm taking or not. But for now, just count me in for blogging. If the posts ever stop coming just know I'm exploring another avenue life has to offer... I dunno, maybe something like learning to Salsa :-D (Let's go Cinco de Mayo)